Life is already complicated without any medical condition. Think about what you have dealt with in your entire life, before you were given the diagnosis. For me its been a lot.
This year I turned 33 years old and it was 3 months before my birthday that I found out about my condition. I will not bore you with the details of the life that came previously but I can tell you, like everyone else, I had good years and bad ones. I had extreme highs and extreme lows. And without question a few very very rock bottom moments.
But there is a catch.
I am still here. No matter what I dealt with before I made it through. Life was complicated. Like a million piece puzzle that you have lost some pieces for. Its frustrating, annoying, sad, happy, exciting and its yours. There is no set time frame for the puzzle to be completed so theirs no rush, but we do anyway.
If this condition has taught me anything its that we need to slow down. We need to take time out of our complicated lives and look after our health. Sometimes, like with me and this illness, we have no choice. We are forced to stop and reevaluate our lives, eating habits etc.
Sure, this condition is serious but you know for me it came as a blessing in disguise. I never would have stopped. I know I would not have. My life was complicated in many ways, yet this condition did not make it worse. In fact I sometimes thank my condition for allowing me to take the time I needed to focus on the bigger picture and enjoy the life I have.
This condition does not stop our lives from being complicated. And I admit some days it does feel like its adding more pieces to the puzzle rather than taking them away, but you know what that does not mean we have to fall into the trap of blaming our condition for not doing things.
We can not use it as an excuse for things. Realistically there will be days where it is a real reason and not an excuse but you have to be honest with yourself and others.
Is this really a day where I can and just do not want too?
Is my pain really strong enough to hold me back from my goal today?
Have I tried everything I can, to do want I have to do today?
Do I control the condition today or does it control me?
Honestly there have been days for me where the pain has been there, yet low enough on the pain scale that I was still able to get at least my minimal amount of things done that I wanted to do. And there have been other days that I know I just need to rest.
I refuse to let my symptoms dictate to me what I can and can not do. And even though some days I have no choice, on days when I do I will not go quietly. I will fight with every ounce of my being to reach my goals and do what I need and want to do.
Everyone has a different puzzle and it is up to us to find the right way to put it together, however we are all in the same room and reaching out for help is nothing to be ashamed of. If you need help of any kind reach out for it.
We are all in this together.
#AlwaysKeepFighting
Alison
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